Wednesday, February 01, 2006

so sad

I don,t know how to write this well. In fact I am not sure how to write it at all.
A week ago, my best friend in Shanghai, Miriam, was electrocuted and killed in her own appartment. The wiring in the old building was very badly done, and the building had no ground/earth wire.
So due to crappy chinese wiring, my beautiful friend was killed.
Her family in Italy have lost their daughter, sister, granddaughter and aunty. Her boyfriend has lost the love of his life. And I have lost a friend who I only knew for 6 months, and who I thought I had forever to get to know better.
I have never cried so much in my life, it is just so senseless.
Phil and I have now come to his home in Montreal, to get a break. At least here I don't see Miriam everywhere I go, remembering the last time we were there together. However, trudging through the snow, half a world away, I still see her in my mind. And cry. And cry. And cry.

2 comments:

Mum and Dad said...

Since you told us about Miriam's death, Louise, Dad and I have thought often of how you must be feeling, and the words Granddad wrote in his diary during WW11 when his best friend was killed have often come to mind - "Sadder than I can say. We were best mates from the start".
Love to you and Phil from us all.

Louise said...

Thanks to everyone for your comments, here and by email. I know how hard it is to say something, ANYTHING, when it feels like there is nothing you could possibly say.
Granddad, in his usual style, hit it on the mark: It's true, I am sadder than I can say, we were best mates from the start.